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Name is Li Xin, came into the world on 12/06. Currently studying in AMKSS, formerly from Ai Tong School. Proud member of NCC Land.
Also known as Ruby Aspen, Rubyfur, Ruby, Meow Meow.

Crazy about Big Bang, Infinite, Choshinsung (Supernova), Super Junior, Dalmation, Co-Ed, G.Na, and Teen Top!



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Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Sore throat. Cough. Flu. Slight fever. Oh ya, I sorta injured the nerves in my right leg. Still got what other illness/injuries arh? -.-

That was a hell lot of sarcasm. Oh wait. There's more to come. Hooray.

For EVERY single project in my class, yes every SINGLE project, I'm stuck with the same group that basically has no creativity and waits for me to do everything, even in one subject that I'm NOT even the leader. No, I'm not talking about you, ZD, but the other three: CHIA DER YUNN. LEE MING HONG. KOH YIXIAN. The three fucking slackers.
And hell yeah, the only project that I'm not grouped with them is drama. Which is basically the easiest project of all. And of the hardest, I get stuck with the slackers. Literature is due tomorrow. No one even THOUGHT of meeting up. Sure, I'm the leader (sadly, with this group), but can't they take their own fucking initiative? So far, the poem has been wholly thought up by me and ZD, with a bit of improvisations from Der Yunn.
And Science? EVERYONE is waiting for me to do the fucking proposal, when I'm not even the leader. I have to organize everything, I have to think of ideas, I have to arrange meetings, when I'm NOT THE FUCKING LEADER.
Geography? I assigned Der Yunn and Yixian their assignment A WEEK AGO, and said I wanted it by Tuesday. I had to REMIND them to send it to me on Monday, when I hadn't received anything from them.
As for Chinese, I've done my part, as far as I'm concerned. I did the whole video on my own. And now they want me to help out with their powerpoint. I wasn't even SUPPOSED to be in charge of the video.

So basically, I'm the one that takes charge of EVERYTHING. What about my own life? I don't do all these stuff just so that you all can enjoy your lives. I'm in the freestyle drill competition, for heaven's sake. I fell sick partly because of it. And mostly because I'M THE ONE DOING ALL THE FUCKING WORK IN THE PROJECT. While others get to live off MY work. Yeah, I can don't do the project, but what about ME? I want to get the marks, even if others don't want to. They can fail and get zero for all I care. I need the marks. If I want to stay in the freestyle drill competition, I NEED MY MARKS. I totally fell asleep during History test today because I was too stressed out to sleep enough the day before.

Why do you people think I quit library? Because it got boring? NO. BECAUSE I'M TOO FUCKING STRESSED OUT TO KEEP UP WITH IT ANYMORE. And this fucking responsibility that I as sure as hell did NOT willingly accept in the first place is just adding on to my personal problems.

As far as I'm concerned, I'll only do the Literature and Geography for the group. I'M WASHING MY HANDS OF EVERYTHING AFTER THAT. THINK OF YOUR OWN PLOT FOR ENGLISH. DO THE FUCKING EXPERIMENT FOR SCIENCE AND DON'T LEAVE IT FOR ME OR ZD.

Oh, and forget about the rest of the TESTS. I haven't even studied for Maths or Science. I haven't even DONE the VE assignment. And don't mention the drama journal that I'm already behind for three weeks.

Just fucking forget my life, okay? Just care about YOU enjoying YOUR lives while I do everything. Yeah, do that.

I'll be truthful for once. Part of my personal problems comes from NCC Land. Yeah, the CCA I love so much and sacrificed a lot for.

[[내 사랑이 제자리로 오지 못하고 흘린 눈물 만큼 멀리 가네요]]


& Rubyfur signed off @ 10:17 PM

My love can't come to this place, it's going as far as many tears I've cried



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