Name is Li Xin, came into the world on 12/06. Currently studying in AMKSS, formerly from Ai Tong School. Proud member of NCC Land.
Also known as Ruby Aspen, Rubyfur, Ruby, Meow Meow.
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Moody all of a sudden.
Chatted with KSM online just now. Told him some of my problems regarding NCC...don't worry, it's not about anyone...
One word to describe what we were talking about...incompetence...
Suddenly I feel like giving up everything, my piano grade 7, my studies, my dreams and hopes and wishes...
Because I'm practically nothing compared to him, who gets into everything.
I feel like I've lost someone close to me, but I don't know who. Close friend, bus mate, platoon mate, whomever. Someone. Just close to me.
So you guys all think I like fighting all the time...
I wish I didn't have to fight, sometimes...didn't have to at all...
I fight because I have to, to get your attention to the person speaking, sometimes, to me when I'm the one telling you guys something important...
Other times when I fight, I don't mean any harm at all. It's just me. And during those times, I can refrain myself from causing any injury at all...
But if I give up fighting physically totally, I'll be giving up mentally as well...
And if you still don't get what it means, it means sleeping forever. Eternally. Never to wake up.
It means
to die.
And I can't do that. Not just yet. Every time I wake up, I just wish to sleep again. There is no pain in sleep. There are only dreams. Dreams that you know are not real, but can't feel the pain either.
I've spoken to ZD about this before. Eternal sleep. She doesn't really understand, and I didn't expect her to anyway. She lives in a complete different world from me. A world of light. Mine is almost fully in darkness. Yeah, everyone has troubles now and then, but they do go away. ZD, her troubles, compared to mine, are actually small in comparison.
I'm trying to fight on, but the strength is deserting me. The darkness takes part of the strength and courage I have each day. Everytime I wake.
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