Name is Li Xin, came into the world on 12/06. Currently studying in AMKSS, formerly from Ai Tong School. Proud member of NCC Land.
Also known as Ruby Aspen, Rubyfur, Ruby, Meow Meow.

Crazy about Big Bang, Infinite, Choshinsung (Supernova), Super Junior, Dalmation, Co-Ed, G.Na, and Teen Top!

Perhaps I am emotionless to some people. Not everyone can have that kind of expression all the time. In fact, sometimes, I do kind of pity those people. Because while the body is emotionless, it means that the soul is somewhere else, enjoying, dreaming, and sometimes, even probing onto something that is called a vision. Whereas those who show their emotions all the time, happy, hyper, sad, emo, it means that their soul hardly ever leave to seek enjoyment in life. And those people whose souls 'leave' them can find peace somewhere.

Some people blog about how miserable their lives are on their blog. Yeah, one or two posts that's fine, everyone has a time when they are done. But always? Daily? Or even once every two days? That's not possible. Okay, it's possible once every long while, when 'being sorry for yourself' periods can stretch up to one week, but it's not possible for for it to happen EVERY DAY. Those people are just trying to get attention from other people. Because then people will care about them, ask them if they are alright etc.

I guess I am emotionless for the past two days in school, and that's because something that in my opinion, is bad, happened to me. I try to get over it, and you don't see me posting a lengthy post about just how miserable my life is. Because that is just being pessimistic. Fine, maybe people will take that as pretending that you are strong when you are actually breaking into pieces inside. So, sometimes, maybe it's true. But why drag people down with you when you are unhappy? Is it because when you are unhappy, you feel like making people unhappy as well?

Yes, I'm talking about some certain person in my school that always feels emo for him/herself. I'm not pinpointing you. But I have had enough. If you feel the need for you to be emo so that you can attract attention to yourself, to be emo in the place where you feel that the people there is not paying enough attention to you, then that place is NOT for you.

I admit, I felt like I didn't belong. But I didn't emo and stay there. I left. Okay, not completely, because I have an obligation to fulfil. But when I'm not needed, I don't stay there and be extra. I leave, to where I belong.

Strangely, or amusingly enough, depending on your view, this place is where the people in the place I don't belong in HATE. Okay, now you might be thinking maybe I should have joined them in the first place. But I know that I won't have known if I had straight away joined them.

Don't ask me how I know. I just know. No, I no longer feel left out. I've found my place, and it's not with people whom I, and many other people, thought it would be.

And please, the person I was talking about, please stop feeling sorry for yourself day on end. It disgusts me. It only makes me despise you more.

[[내 사랑이 제자리로 오지 못하고 흘린 눈물 만큼 멀리 가네요]]

My love can't come to this place, it's going as far as many tears I've cried

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