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Name is Li Xin, came into the world on 12/06. Currently studying in AMKSS, formerly from Ai Tong School. Proud member of NCC Land.
Also known as Ruby Aspen, Rubyfur, Ruby, Meow Meow.

Crazy about Big Bang, Infinite, Choshinsung (Supernova), Super Junior, Dalmation, Co-Ed, G.Na, and Teen Top!



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Friday, August 14, 2009

The mood about it can change any moment. One moment it can be hurt. Another it can be contempt or defiance. Another it can be just...submission. For the first one, I simply give short replies. Contempt and defiance...I guess, demanding an answer to whatever is ordered? Because I do still want to know after all. And as for submission...ignoring, I think. It's rarely the third. In fact, I think it only happened once, a day or two ago. And I'm sorry to say that the reaction does not only happen towards the person that caused all this, but to the people around me as well. So if I seemed to be cold, or demanding answers to questions or simply just asking 'why', it's easy to know that during that point of time I'm reminded of what happened.

Forgive me for doing this.
I'm not trying to force the truth.
But I can't live with seeing and not knowing.
I'm tired of trying and fighting.

I couldn't find the teacher these past two days. I'm not giving this up because whatever else I seem to do, nothing good ever comes out of it unless I give up. And all the giving up has pushed me to this. Last resort. Last chance. Last fight.

Who knows? I might change my mind.

To the two people who knows what I'm going to do, please keep it to yourselves. I don't want to tell them cause I don't want the pretending, the acting, the faking and whatever it takes for one to stay.

[[내 사랑이 제자리로 오지 못하고 흘린 눈물 만큼 멀리 가네요]]


& Rubyfur signed off @ 11:14 PM

My love can't come to this place, it's going as far as many tears I've cried



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