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all about me

Name is
Li Xin, came into the world on
12/06. Currently studying in
AMKSS, formerly from
Ai Tong School. Proud member of
NCC Land.
Also known as
Ruby Aspen,
Rubyfur,
Ruby,
Meow Meow.
Crazy about Big Bang, Infinite, Choshinsung (Supernova), Super Junior, Dalmation, Co-Ed, G.Na, and Teen Top!
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
What, so you want me to tell you everything so that you can use it against me later? No thank you.
I feel so helpless now. What was supposed to belong to me is being snatched away right in front of my own eyes, out of my own hands. I can't fight back because of the people that keep putting biased comments. I can't fight back because I don't have any more strength to.
Maybe you would say my mentality is too weak. But you, as one whom knew almost everything, even you do not know everything.
Because of the stress, because of the pressure, I can't click with them at all. Everything I do is rushed, hurried, done without any passion put into it. Now I don't really care even if said belonging is snatched away, but I just want to be able to connect with them.
I keep trying, keep fighting to hold on, but no matter how hard I fight, I'm losing ground. So what am I supposed to say? I give up? I don't want that anymore because I really can't take everything, so I'll just be frank with all of you?
No right? You guys'll just screw everything. It's as if I said the exact same thing I said previously.
But if I keep lying, keep telling you that I want that when I actually don't, I can't defend myself. In the end, you guys'll still screw up everything.
Fine. I'm going to tell you the truth. Then I'm not going to bother any more.
[[내 사랑이 제자리로 오지 못하고 흘린 눈물 만큼 멀리 가네요]]
& Rubyfur signed off @ 11:56 PM
My love can't come to this place, it's going as far as many tears I've cried