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Name is Li Xin, came into the world on 12/06. Currently studying in AMKSS, formerly from Ai Tong School. Proud member of NCC Land.
Also known as Ruby Aspen, Rubyfur, Ruby, Meow Meow.

Crazy about Big Bang, Infinite, Choshinsung (Supernova), Super Junior, Dalmation, Co-Ed, G.Na, and Teen Top!



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Thursday, December 30, 2010

Today was kinda…confusing. Towards the end I suppose.

In the morning went to school for training and found out that there wasn’t PDS training today. The PDS people went to help unarmed instead, and all of us got put into unarmed because they lacked people. Which means after the PDS performance, we have to chiong to change and all, within 3 minutes at most.

I left at 1.30pm to go to HQ for the PDS rehearsal. Alot of things happened, personal, group-wise…

I can’t believe I actually offered to be mediator between the two conflicting groups. I just hope that nothing worse will come out of it all…I have confidence in dealing with difficult members, insulting site owners, but uhm, real life situation? I’m not really that confident. I’m just afraid of making things worse.

I actually just want the team to be the 8 of us. It feels like we are more bonded with each other than with the 14. But of course, saying that comes with its own consequence. Like how there will forever be rivalry between their school and our schools, and it will be passed down for generations to come. I don’t want that to happen. Personal feelings, or for the good of all our units? I can’t be selfish and do what I want.

And as for the other personal matter…I didn’t start it, but I guess I worsened it. It always ends up like this, doesn’t it? I try to act like it doesn’t bother me, and end up just hurting myself more and the other person as well.

You told me that you would be there.

What did you mean? I didn’t mean to ignore it. I was just…really stunned. I had to think. And one hour passed. I don’t think I’ve ever been surprised that much to not do anything much for one hour =)

I’m truly at a lost now. I don’t know what he is thinking, and I wish he would just say something.

This is one of the tracks off Infinite’s upcoming second mini album that was released today. But that’s not the only reason I shared it. Look for the lyrics and you’ll understand =)

[[내 사랑이 제자리로 오지 못하고 흘린 눈물 만큼 멀리 가네요]]


& Rubyfur signed off @ 12:12 AM

My love can't come to this place, it's going as far as many tears I've cried



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